So it sounds like I’m not going to get the job doing math research. There’s still a chance but it’s pretty slim. It seems that quite a few more project proposals came in at the last minute, meaning that the chance that Prof Dimitrov will get a second student, or that I’ll get a position is pretty low.

He broke it to me just before math club. I’m actually surprised at how well I took it. I managed to make it through the meeting. I even managed to talk to him to see if there’s something I can still do, although I was pretty close to breaking down then. I suppose I should’ve waited.

I walked home and cried a good part of the way. At least I tried not to let myself be convinced that I’d get it.

The plan right now is to try to get another job in Kingston so that I can still work at Queen’s for less/no money. I want this so badly! Now it feels like I’ve wasted the last month when I could have been applying for other jobs.

At the very least I’m going to the CUMC and I’m going to have a kick ass lecture. Maybe I can get enough money to be able to still do this. I was thinking that if I can find an internship then maybe I can justify not getting paid this summer. I don’t know.

It feels like I’ve just been dumped.

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